Prayers & Answers

I’ve been thinking about the content of my prayers.

Last year it was a lot of “Lord, I don’t know why I’m still at this job. I’m doing so little work, it can’t be good for my career. Why am I getting rejected everywhere. Why would you keep me here? I know a new job does not solve all of my problems, but man, it seems like it would be great.” A lot of that.

I’d ask to be at a specific workplace, or for things to rev up at work. A specific, earthly tangible thing that I could articulate myself.

And I couldn’t have fathomed at the time that both a new job and a new home were in the works (for both my husband and I!).

As I reflect on how he’s answered my prayers, I’ve realized that it’s easy to think that a) getting what you want or b) getting at least something different is the answer.

Yes, I was given a new job and a new home. But now that I’m here, new earthly things have cropped up that I find myself wanting. I don’t want to go back to that place again — just continually asking for things to change, because it will never be enough.

I’m reminded again that Gods plan for me is not to be at a particular workplace or building a certain thing. He wants me to be humble, righteous, holy, seeking His Kingdom, loving, gentle, and all the other things that I am not terribly good at, and that’s what my prayers should overwhelmingly be asking for. When I’m focused on how he wants me to grow, my life is in a better place, without anything hardly changed.

Side note: I believe that God wants us to come to him with anything- any feeling, burden, joy, desire, and that he will always love you no matter what you lay at his feet.

Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.

Romans 12: 12

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